Itchan, you did a great job! :)

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko alam kung paano ko ilalabas ang lahat ng lungkot sa puso ko kaya naisip kong maaaring sa pagsulat dito ay kahit paano'y mababawasan ang bigat na dinadala ko. 

"Life is so good. Enjoy every second of it! :)" posted October 2 at 3:58pm. 

--Ito ang huling status mo sa facebook at ito ang pakatatandaan naming lahat na nagmamahal sa'yo. Sabi mo nga, maganda ang buhay at pinatunayan mo 'yan sa pamamagitan ng pagpapasaya ng mga araw na kasama ka namin. 

ANG BIGAT. Minabuti ko na isulat ito sa wikang Filipino para mailabas ko ang lahat ng bigat na dinadala ko. Hindi ko alam na sa isang iglap, yung taong masiyahin at masigla ay biglang babawiin sa amin. Mahirap isipin pero kailangan tanggapin. Kailangan naming bumangon kahit hindi namin alam kung kakayanin namin.

Lahat kami ay nalulungkot. Alam naming ayaw mo na magkaganito kami kaya pipilitin naming maging matatag. Lagi mo ngang sinasabi, "Ang buhay ay hiram lamang." Ipinahiram ka samin ni Lord para iparamdam sa aming lahat kung paano maging masaya at kung paano maging matatag sa oras ng paghihirap.Higit dito, ipinahiram ka sa amin upang matuto kami na pahalagahan ang bawat segundong ibinigay sa amin upang mabuhay.

Alam naming naging mahirap para sa'yo na ngumiti sa kabila ng lahat ng sakit na pinagdaanan mo pero mas pinili mo pa ring gawin yun para hanggang sa huli, masasayang alaala ang maiiwan mo sa amin. Sa lahat ng ito, maraming maraming salamat. Ang mga ngiti at halakhak mo ay mananatiling nakatanim sa aming mga puso. Ito at ang katotohanang masaya ka na kasama ang Ama natin sa langit ang gagawin naming tuntungan para unti-unti ay makabangon kami.

Lider, yan ang tawag mo sa akin. Ikaw ang lagi kong katabi at kagrupo kapag ang basehan ay apelyido. Erestain-Estupin. Natatawa ako twing naaalala ko kung paano mo sabihing, "Saan tayo, lider?" at "Sunod tayo kay lider." Kahit sinasabihan mo akong hindi nagpapakopya, sobrang nalulungkot ako dahil wala nang magsasabi ulit nun sakin. Salamat sa pagiging mabuting classmate, groupmate, seatmate, kapatid at kaibigan. Mamimiss kita sampu ng iba mo pang mga kaibigan. Mahal ka namin. 

Mula kay lider, 

ITCHAN, YOU DID A GREAT JOB!

Uno ang grado mo sa buhay na ito.

See you later, but not too soon, okay? 

We will miss you and we truly love you!

         xoxo

Goodbye, Razelle. See you later. We love you :(

A girl with a pretty face, sweet smile, beautiful voice. That's how we will remember her. These qualities that she has will forever stay in our mind and of course in our hearts.

This is my first time to write a blog about someone who have passed away and honestly, it's breaking my heart as I type each letter of this blog since she's a good friend of mine. It is only today that everything is starting to sink in. I went to her last night and as I see her pretty face inside the coffin, I felt sad. I almost cry but I tried not to, I want her to see that we will be strong for her. But still, I can't believe that all of a sudden, she's gone.

She was a good friend, I know that everyone who knows her will agree. We are not that close but from the time that we first met and until this very day (and maybe until we meet again), we are friends. She's someone who is always ready to listen to whatever it is that you want to tell her, may it be about love life, family, friends, enemies, name it, she will listen. She'll even ask for the details of each story that you are telling her which means that she really listens. She is someone who will ask you how you are and will remain the same even if you are not in touch for a long time. Though she's a bit 'pasaway,' she's someone who will be your friend wherever you are and whatever happens.

I'm losing each word that I want to write here since sadness is starting to fill my heart. My tears are running down my eyes and I can't control it. I will miss her, super. :(

On the other hand, after I heard the details before her death, I just said that maybe, it is better this way. She has suffered a lot and now, she's in God's arms where there will be no suffering. This is the thing that makes me feel calm each time I feel the sadness of losing her.

to those who love her and are feeling like what I'm feeling, I want to share this to you:

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

Having a lot of friends who cried as they knew that she's gone proved how true she was to her friends and her family. In behalf of all those people who want to say a lot to you, let me say...

We will surely miss you. Your pretty face, sweet smile and beautiful voice and laughter will forever be remembered by us. Lucky us that we've known you. Thank you for those years that you've shared with us. It is sad that we've lost you as early as now but in our hearts, there is also happiness that you will suffer no more. We thank God for lending you to us and for letting you be part of our lives. Now that you are at peace, we know that you are happy and that will make us stronger to face the days ahead without you.

Goodbye, Razelle.

See you later.

We ♥ you.

      

      your forever friend,