Tears shed as we said goodbye

February 12 was Razelle's last day with us. Friends, relatives and other people who wants to be part of her last day on earth gathered. I saw the sadness in everybody's eyes as we went to the church for a mass. Almost everyone cried as the priest said that we can look at her for the last time on her last day. Tears fell. Sadness filled the church. Though the priest told in his homily that we all must be happy now that Razelle will be with God and all the suffering will never be felt by her, still, the thought of losing her is the thing that makes it hard for her family to let go.

Razelle's very dear to us, her friends, and it's really heartbreaking. What more does her family feels? I know the feeling of losing a family member that's why I understand how sad they were. But we can do nothing. We have to let her rest in peace, let go and let God take her in His arms.

And so, we sent her to her body's last destination, to the place where her body will stay. Things flashed back as we watched her tomb being arranged for her. Again, we shed tears but this time, it's more of tears that said "go and rest" than "i wish you're still with us." We have to let her be free and go without hesitation. Even if it's sad. Even if we know that she'll be gone forever.

I don't know what will be the next step her family will do after this day but one thing is for sure, her smiles will all be missed. Losing someone, especially a loved one, is really hard. It's not like break-up where you have the chance to see each other again or be with each other's arms again if you both realized that you still love one another. With death, it's more painful and I can't explain how hard it is to move forward again. And what's more sad is that, there is no single chance that you will see each other again (or maybe, if life after death is true, then that is the only time you could meet again).

What happened to Razelle gave me a lot of realizations in life. It taught me that life can be gone in just a blink of an eye. So before it happens, let's make sure that we've done things that we want to. Cherish every single second and gave meaning to it. Let's make our life a meaningful one. Love those people around us. Let's be free and give our best in everything that we do. Let's always say to ourselves that "Life is too short." Touch other people's lives and most of all, BE HAPPY.

Razelle, we will miss you, that's for sure. Goodbye for now. Go and rest in peace. Now that you're with God, may you guide us, especially your family. We love you!

      xoxo

 

P.S.

And when I die, let my coffin be white or light blue. Let me wear a light blue dress and simple make-up. I want to have my photos in a gallery and an AVP of my memories that is continuously playing next to my coffin. I also want a continuous playing of songs and some singing sessions from my friends and loved ones on my wake. I want everyone to treat me as if I am just sleeping. I don't want to be cremated..And as you send me on my tomb, I want everyone to wear blue also. I want a simple program where people who wants to say goodbye to me express their feelings through words and for those who want to keep their message between the two of us, let there be blue balloons with brief notes from them fly in the sky to send their message for me. I know I can't stop you from crying but I want everyone to be happy for me for I will be with our Father where I will live eternally, happily and peacefully. :)

Whoever has the chance to read this, please take note of this and let my family know about this if I'll die. Of course, I don't want it to be soon but if it's God's will, I must obey. xoxo

Goodbye, Razelle. See you later. We love you :(

A girl with a pretty face, sweet smile, beautiful voice. That's how we will remember her. These qualities that she has will forever stay in our mind and of course in our hearts.

This is my first time to write a blog about someone who have passed away and honestly, it's breaking my heart as I type each letter of this blog since she's a good friend of mine. It is only today that everything is starting to sink in. I went to her last night and as I see her pretty face inside the coffin, I felt sad. I almost cry but I tried not to, I want her to see that we will be strong for her. But still, I can't believe that all of a sudden, she's gone.

She was a good friend, I know that everyone who knows her will agree. We are not that close but from the time that we first met and until this very day (and maybe until we meet again), we are friends. She's someone who is always ready to listen to whatever it is that you want to tell her, may it be about love life, family, friends, enemies, name it, she will listen. She'll even ask for the details of each story that you are telling her which means that she really listens. She is someone who will ask you how you are and will remain the same even if you are not in touch for a long time. Though she's a bit 'pasaway,' she's someone who will be your friend wherever you are and whatever happens.

I'm losing each word that I want to write here since sadness is starting to fill my heart. My tears are running down my eyes and I can't control it. I will miss her, super. :(

On the other hand, after I heard the details before her death, I just said that maybe, it is better this way. She has suffered a lot and now, she's in God's arms where there will be no suffering. This is the thing that makes me feel calm each time I feel the sadness of losing her.

to those who love her and are feeling like what I'm feeling, I want to share this to you:

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

Having a lot of friends who cried as they knew that she's gone proved how true she was to her friends and her family. In behalf of all those people who want to say a lot to you, let me say...

We will surely miss you. Your pretty face, sweet smile and beautiful voice and laughter will forever be remembered by us. Lucky us that we've known you. Thank you for those years that you've shared with us. It is sad that we've lost you as early as now but in our hearts, there is also happiness that you will suffer no more. We thank God for lending you to us and for letting you be part of our lives. Now that you are at peace, we know that you are happy and that will make us stronger to face the days ahead without you.

Goodbye, Razelle.

See you later.

We ♥ you.

      

      your forever friend,